One of my favorite quotes, "The Greatest Mistake in life is to be continuing fearing of making one." I started with this because something that I thought I was living by, but has now taken over every inch of me of irony.
In a way I'm kinda pissed off. See, here I was just finally taking control over everything of my life. Making choices, accepting responsibility and taking charge were my focus. All of that drove me to where I sit today. I still have a lot of things falling apart around me, but I've conquered many of my goals I set out. The part that makes me mad is having things throw me in a 360 degree tailspin. Most of the these things are not bad, they are actually amazing. My complaint I guess is because I didn't plan these. I didn't set out for them. So now I'm stuck waiting for that catch-22.....you know that its too good to be true so where the shitty thing you want to tell me. I'm questioning everything beyond my normal questioning. (Which is a big fing deal) Half the time I'm not even making any sense even to myself let alone to others.
So....I guess I still don't even really know what I'm saying. Its just me a confused chick that has all new wants and needs with a big plate of everything being handed to her and just wants water for now. Maybe just water.....UGH!!!!!!!!
In a way I'm kinda pissed off. See, here I was just finally taking control over everything of my life. Making choices, accepting responsibility and taking charge were my focus. All of that drove me to where I sit today. I still have a lot of things falling apart around me, but I've conquered many of my goals I set out. The part that makes me mad is having things throw me in a 360 degree tailspin. Most of the these things are not bad, they are actually amazing. My complaint I guess is because I didn't plan these. I didn't set out for them. So now I'm stuck waiting for that catch-22.....you know that its too good to be true so where the shitty thing you want to tell me. I'm questioning everything beyond my normal questioning. (Which is a big fing deal) Half the time I'm not even making any sense even to myself let alone to others.
So....I guess I still don't even really know what I'm saying. Its just me a confused chick that has all new wants and needs with a big plate of everything being handed to her and just wants water for now. Maybe just water.....UGH!!!!!!!!
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