Ever thought of what the worse possible thing would be to happen to you where you would just fall apart? I thought I did. I was proved wrong last night.
Today I woke up with a new future. A chance to let everything in the past be left in the past and that's where I will leave it. I'm going to be still that girl with hopes and dreams with a family that I love. I will have my husband by my side where we will find our way through the rest of our lives.Challenges will be faced, but together.
If there are any friends out there that want to be in my life then they are welcomed. You just have to be acceptable that no one is perfect and that sometimes your not going to get the opportunity to know everything. Its not that your not trusted, its that I can't even trust my thoughts and feelings anymore.
Things are changing and that goes with what I share. Sometimes you just need to be private with some things because there will always be that one person that will misconstrue. My heart has been broken in so many different ways that I think if I scream loud enough it will finally shatter.
The last thing I ever wanted was to cause pain to anyone. I was sucked into a selfish need that I thought required to be full-filled and almost lost everything. This blog today isn't just to rant on me being a new form of "fucked up" in the head kinda of way but at least you know....haha.
I will start a new blog here soon, but I'm closing Me, Myself, and the baggage.... In order to start over, I have to close all the pain and most of these blogs stem from it.
One final note. You may have been exposed to information...but no matter what you will never know the whole truth and the meaning behind that. Remember that when you make a choice on what to say, who to talk to you, and especially who to confide in.
Today I woke up with a new future. A chance to let everything in the past be left in the past and that's where I will leave it. I'm going to be still that girl with hopes and dreams with a family that I love. I will have my husband by my side where we will find our way through the rest of our lives.Challenges will be faced, but together.
If there are any friends out there that want to be in my life then they are welcomed. You just have to be acceptable that no one is perfect and that sometimes your not going to get the opportunity to know everything. Its not that your not trusted, its that I can't even trust my thoughts and feelings anymore.
Things are changing and that goes with what I share. Sometimes you just need to be private with some things because there will always be that one person that will misconstrue. My heart has been broken in so many different ways that I think if I scream loud enough it will finally shatter.
The last thing I ever wanted was to cause pain to anyone. I was sucked into a selfish need that I thought required to be full-filled and almost lost everything. This blog today isn't just to rant on me being a new form of "fucked up" in the head kinda of way but at least you know....haha.
I will start a new blog here soon, but I'm closing Me, Myself, and the baggage.... In order to start over, I have to close all the pain and most of these blogs stem from it.
One final note. You may have been exposed to information...but no matter what you will never know the whole truth and the meaning behind that. Remember that when you make a choice on what to say, who to talk to you, and especially who to confide in.
