Back in the day

Okay...quick rundown. I grew up with both of my parents. My father was and still is a dedicated blue collar worker and my mother a Deputy Sheriff. It was just me and my older sister. I always thought of my sister as being the perfect one and then I was the one that screwed things up all the time. I will admit I loved to test my limits, which of course led me to be grounded most of my high school days! I guess in a way though I should be thankful that they didn't ever find out everything I may have gotten myself into but also grateful that I was taught better to get myself out of situations I put myself in.

Growing up though, I was lucky to be exposed some really cool things. I was a pageant girl. I quit the year I was 1st runner-up for little Miss Ohio. My poor mother was devastated but I wanted to play in the mud and got sick of living in salons! I also did dance...played softball, choir and I played the clarinet. I also secretly had a love for math and science, and pretty good at it too. I also LOVED to write. I used to be able to take a moment and write it into something beautiful. Now I'm working on to finding that again and I hope I do. Writing was a big stress reliever.

I am very grateful to have one of those personalities that goes with the flow and be able to relate to pretty much anyone I was around. I love people and never conformed to "clicks", at least I don't think I did. I also dated a lot of boys...maybe too many but hell, you don't know what you like until you try them all! I remember everyone of them...some better than others but they knew me. I didn't pretend to be someone that I wasn't. I'm also one of those "what if?" girls....like what if I didn't screw up a relationship, where and who would I be today?

I don't look at my past of being full of bad choices or mistakes. The choices I made then created the person I am today. I may not like who I am now, but that just means I have some new choices to make.

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”