Wednesday, February 24, 2010

You live.....You learn.

When I first started writing this blog, I was filled with a conflict. I was lying to myself and others for many years on how I really felt about my life and my relationships that I have had. More specifically I was putting up a perfectly painted picture for all to see in the outside world that I was happy.....but deep down I wasn't.

Over the past couple days my life has been on a whirlwind. I had to face consequences for actions that pretty much almost destroyed my relationship with my husband. I've been lucky enough to say that we are both fighting to find our hearts again with one another.

I'm sure you have heard the phrase that you don't realize how important something or someone is to you until its gone. This truly applies with me. I always knew that I wanted to share a different life with my husband but I didn't know how to get it. Who knew that actually telling someone something could make that change. I know that now though.

I have taken responsibilities for my actions. I have learned that when we make choices to do things in our life, its usually blinding to see how what we chose to do will affect others around us. I used to be a matriarch of telling others on what they are doing with their lives is wrong and the ability to tell them what to do to fix it but yet I'm the one deep down needs fixing.

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